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I wrote a letter that I could never send.
We always thumb through the same story’s end.
I know we're broken.
There's so much to mend
But I've been lonely.
Stuck on a carousel made out of driftwood
And some crooked nails.
I’m just a letdown coming back around again.
Let me find what I’ve lost;
Repay what I’ve cost you.
Can you live with what I’ve done?
Will I ever be the one when there’s a hole in your chest?
A poor attempt at my best.
And I’m only getting worse while you’re Harboring the Hurt I’ve Caused.
There’s an ocean we never seem to cross;
Another problem that gets the best of us.
‘Cause you’re an island
And I’m the undertow.
You want a family; to try and build a home.
A pair of footprints painted on the stone.
But I can fix this.
Please don't let me go again.
Let me find what I’ve lost;
Repay what I’ve cost you.
Can you live with what I’ve done?
Will I ever be the one when there’s a hole in your chest?
A poor attempt at my best.
And I’m only getting worse while you’re Harboring the Hurt
I’ve Caused everything to break.
How much more can we both take?
You gave it all you've got
While I stole what could be bought.
Now i'm just like all the rest
And it feels like second best
‘Cause I'm only getting worse while you’re Harboring the Hurt I’ve Caused.
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Gravity
03:09
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I need something to tear apart the seams.
I’m stuck in bed at war with gravity.
I hear the sound of your voice but I can't speak.
Like a song without a melody to sing.
You don't deserve to live this way
And I don't think that I'm worth saving.
I just don't know what you want from me.
Run away like you know you should.
Forget about this perfect family.
Never did what you thought I could.
Let me fade into your memory.
So run away.
Just run away.
Run away.
You're looking at a man without a name.
A ripped up photo stuck inside a silver frame
I'm living in routine defeat
And sinking back into the sheets
And I just don't know what you want from me.
Run away like you know you should.
Forget about this perfect family.
Never did what you thought I could.
Let me fade into your memory.
So run away.
Just run away.
Run away.
Yeah you know I want to care.
Yeah I know it's so unfair.
Run away like you know you should.
Forget about this perfect family.
Never did what you thought I could.
Let me fade into your memory.
So run away.
Just run away.
Run away.
Run away like you know you should.
Forget about this perfect family.
Never did what you thought I could.
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Hopeless
03:30
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What does it feel like?
I wanna believe in something more
‘Cause I adore you.
At least I used to.
What does it feel like?
To wanna be something more than nothing?
Cause I’m not anyone anymore.
What does it feel like?
I'm burning this down from the inside out.
Stuck in a rut where I convinced myself
I'll never get up; I'll never get out now.
You're running away with everything we built
And I’m screaming my lungs out
“Please stay with me this time”
Before I change my mind.
Take the past and try to wash it away.
I wanna come clean;
As clean as I can be.
I’m fuckin’ filthy.
What does it feel like
To keep your head above the water?
‘Cause every day the tide is pulling me under.
What does it feel like?
I'm burning this down from the inside out.
Stuck in a rut where I convinced myself
I'll never get up; I'll never get out now.
You're running away with everything we built
And I’m screaming my lungs out
“Please stay with me this time”
So don't forget that feeling when your heart is beating right through your chest.
Can barely breathe; cant fucking speak. The pain is sinking in.
I'm burning this down from the inside out.
Stuck in a rut where I convinced myself
I'll never get up; I'll never get out now.
You're running away with everything we built
And I’m screaming my lungs out
“Please stay with me this time”
I’m gonna change my mind.
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Natural Disaster
03:12
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I know it's not working.
The rain just keeps falling down.
Now nothing feels certain.
The pieces aren't fitting.
I’m scared we're on hollow ground.
Don't close the curtain.
There’s cracks in the hardwood.
Our footsteps won't make a sound when the morning comes.
When it all starts to cave in, you're the one I'm saving.
Caught in a natural disaster and I am the cause
But we can build it back up again.
My hands, they cant stop from shaking
So I'll take the fall.
Why can’t I say that I'm sorry?
I'm a natural disaster.
I’m so tired of all the fighting.
There’s shelter in the silhouette of who we were before.
I hope you see me trying
I’d die to feel your love again.
You give it all a purpose.
But I started an earthquake.
Our home won't be standing here when the morning comes.
When it all starts to cave in, you're the one I'm saving.
Caught in a natural disaster and I am the cause
But we can build it back up again.
My hands, they cant stop from shaking
So I'll take the fall.
Why can’t I say that I'm sorry?
I'm a natural disaster.
I'm a natural disaster.
So when it all starts to cave in, you're the one I'm saving.
Caught in a natural disaster built from all my flaws.
I’m gonna burn it all down again.
You’re the only fix but I’m breaking.
Thought we were stronger.
Can’t you see that I’m sorry?
I'm a natural disaster.
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The night is never-ending;
Stuck in a fever dream.
The darkness holds me
but it's only gonna give
Nothing at all.
Nothing at all.
Now we're all torn up. Is this good enough
to ignore the knots in my stomach?
Well you take and you take but you're offering nothing.
I'll wait, just refrain; every second is crushing.
It's already 3 AM, stuck on my phone again.
My mind keeps racing.
Do you like that you love me?
Do you like that you love me?
It seems as if you're sinking.
The weight is tied to your feet.
The world keeps floating
up and away ‘til you feel nothing at all.
It's nothing at all.
When I drove you home from the Dashboard show everything just felt so perfect.
Wishing you'd forget all the shit I said.
Can't escape this thought that we're different.
Well you take and you take but you're offering nothing.
I'll wait, just refrain; every second is crushing.
It's already 3 AM, stuck on my phone again.
My mind keeps racing.
Do you like that you love me?
Do you like that you love me?
The night is never-ending. You know I hate this dream.
The darkness told me that it's only gonna give
nothing at all.
Well you take and you take but you're offering nothing.
I'll wait, just refrain; every second is crushing.
It's already 3 AM, stuck on my phone again.
My mind keeps racing.
Do you like that you love me?
It's already 3 AM. I'm all alone again.
My mind keeps racing.
Do you like that you love me?
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Empty
03:39
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I've been asleep so long.
I’m barely breathing
And your voice is gone.
It’s like silent screaming.
Tried to bite my tongue,
Now im bleeding out one more song
About the death of me.
Now I see so clearly.
I know my funeral’s next weekend but
If you've got plans I'll be understanding ‘cause
Our glass was empty but it seemed full to me.
It only took 10 years to see what you see.
So let's pretend the worst was only a dream
‘Cause I don't wanna face what's coming.
If it was only that easy.
I picked you up outside
With your words still repeating.
Are the purple lights worth all the drinking?
But I know I’m wrong.
I’ve been your enemy far too long;
Stuck in a memory.
Now I see so clearly
I know my funeral’s tomorrow but
If you've got plans I'll be understanding ‘cause
Our glass was empty but it seemed full to me.
It only took 10 years to see what you see.
So let's pretend the worst was only a dream
‘Cause I don't wanna face what's coming.
If it was only that easy.
If it was only that easy.
So sick of the lying; sick of the crying.
I can't forgive myself for watching us burn.
So fuck all the fighting; the shit we’ve been hiding.
I still remember us the way that we were.
The way that we were.
Our glass was empty but it seemed full to me.
It only took 10 years to see what you see.
So let's pretend the worst was only a dream
‘Cause I don't wanna face what's coming.
No, I don't wanna face what's coming.
If it was only that easy.
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Breathe Again
03:20
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It's always hard to find a way to get back up again.
And we're both so scarred now
I can't remember which one came from when.
It seemed so easy just to bury it all
And God knows we tried.
And it's suffocating you.
I just want to feel you breathe again.
You never had to hold it in.
So go on and just breathe again.
You can tell all your friends
That there's a light at the end; never seemed this bright.
Take a breath, close your eyes, we'll be alright.
Air is all I need
Does time heal all still?
It seems yesterday we lost our kid
And pushed all the pain down.
We broke it off just to come right back again.
Distance seemed healthy but we're lost on our own.
I wish we never tried ‘cause it's suffocating you.
I just want to feel you breathe again.
You never had to hold it in.
So go on and just breathe again.
You can tell all your friends
That there's a light at the end; never seemed this bright.
Take a breath, close your eyes, we'll be alright.
Air is all I need
I know we're messed up;
A little worse for wear and that's alright.
I know I fucked up one of our better years.
I can't take it back and it's suffocating you.
I just want to feel you breathe again.
You never had to hold it in.
So go on and just breathe again.
You can tell all your friends
That there's a light at the end; never seemed this bright.
Take a breath, close your eyes, we'll be alright.
Air is all I need
I just want to feel you breathe again.
You never had to hold it in.
So go on and just breathe again.
You can tell all your friends
That there's a light at the end; never seemed this bright.
Take a breath, close your eyes, we'll be alright.
Air is all I…
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Reprise
03:50
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I can't remember when this suffering began again.
I'm a road without an end; a liar that can't pretend.
I stopped searching for the words.
Now they’re trapped inside my head.
Feels like a friend is dead
And I'm staring at blood-stained hands again.
I’m not giving up on you
‘Cause that's something you'd never do.
And I wanna feel your hands in mine one more time.
We’ll be fine someday.
Tell me why it's so hard to set things right.
You're all I need and I couldn't see that
But I swear I’m getting better.
I know you’re wearing thin
And there's nothing that can fix it all
Before the sun has set
But I’ll do my fuckin’ best.
My demons wanna breathe and they’re dying to be fed.
But I’ll starve this life I've led and learn to feel the good again.
I’m not giving up on you
‘Cause that's something you'd never do.
And I wanna feel your hands in mine one more time.
We’ll be fine someday.
Tell me why it's so hard to set things right.
You're all I need and I couldn't see that
But I swear I’m getting better.
As I watched you wither away I never shared in the life you lead.
My mistakes became my friends, and for a time I thought you’d leave.
You watched me waste my days doing anything I could to numb the pain.
But you couldn't stay and watch our love decay.
Let me find what I’ve lost;
Repay what I’ve cost you.
Can you live with what I’ve done?
Will I ever be the one when there’s a hole in your chest?
A poor attempt at my best.
And I’m only getting worse while you’re Harboring the Hurt I’ve Caused.
So don't give up on me.
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Love will abide
Take things in stride
Sounds like good advice
But there's no one at my side
And time washes clean
love's wounds unseen
That's what someone told me
But I don't know what it means
'Cause I've done everything I know
To try and make you mine
And I think I'm gonna love you
For a long long time
Caught in my fears
Blinking back the tears
I can't say you hurt me
When you never let me near
And I never drew one response from you
All the while you fell all over girls you never knew
'Cause I've done everything I know
To try and make you mine
And I think it's gonna hurt me
For a long long time
Wait for the day you'll go away
Knowing that you warned me
Of the price I'd have to pay
And life's full of flaws
Who knows the cause?
Living in the memory of a love that never was
'Cause I've done everything I know
To try and change your mind
And I think I'm gonna miss you
For a long long time
'Cause I've done everything I know
To try and make you mine
And I think I'm gonna love you
For a long long time
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